Kendra, fifteen, hasn’t felt safe since she began to recall devastating memories of childhood sexual abuse, especially because she still can’t remember the most important detail– her abuser’s identity. Frightened, Kendra believes someone is always watching and following her, leaving menacing messages only she understands. If she lets her guard down even for a minute, it could cost Kendra her life.
To relieve the pressure, Kendra cuts; aside from her brilliantly expressive artwork, it’s her only way of coping. Since her own mother is too self-absorbed to hear her cries for help, Kendra finds support in others instead: from her therapist and her art teacher, from Sandy, the close family friend who encourages her artwork, and from Meghan, the classmate who’s becoming a friend and maybe more. But the truth about Kendra’s abuse is just waiting to explode, with startling unforeseen consequences.
When authors try to write about difficult subjects (such as sexual abuse or cutting; which are both featured in this book), it either works or it doesn’t. There’s no “eh, it was ok”. Most authors end up romanticising it, including Cheryl Rainfield. The book made cutting seem cool and a good thing to do, at least that’s what I got from it.
This book isn’t bad. It just isn’t very good.
What really annoyed me was how for most of the book it was an angsty mess. Kendra, I get it, you’re messed up. WHY CAN’T YOU SEE YOUR MOTHER IS TRYING TO HELP YOU? Instead, she loved her therapist for than her mother which I didn’t get at all. I really found it odd.
I really enjoyed the mystery aspect to it which I didn’t see coming (the mystery not the culprit). I thought it would be more of a self discovery thing (which it was as well). That was nice.
Kendra was a depressed, angsty teenager with some problems *points to head*. She was sexually abused when she was a kid and was told by her abuser not to tell anyone who he was or he’d kill her. The messed up dude he was, he also showed her how to cut. So now she cuts and is really paranoid (well, wouldn’t you be?). She can be strong ast times but mostly she is in a pile, bleeding to death. -_-
Meghan was strong on the outside and weak on the inside. She was a very nice girl and love interest. I really enjoyed reading about her. Meghan also came from a messed up house and I think she’s depressed (I don’t remember). Anyway, she was refreshing.
The mother was written in a way to make her seem like the bad guy. The dad was the good guy I guess. THe mother had no personality and really just needed to be there. That’s the only reason she was there.
I knew who the rapist was really early on. It annoyed me. Other than that, the plot wasn’t too bad, if not really clichéd. It was a bit predictable but the romance was adorable. Don’t tell anyone, but this is my only f + f pairing I’ve read. I’ve read plenty of m + m but no lesbian romances. :\ (totally shipping Malec btw).
It wasn’t anything special, it just, you know, was ok.
What I liked and disliked:
- f + f
- fairly interesting plot
- Annoying MC
- Predictable plot
- Bland characters (aside from Meghan)
This book doesn’t really bring anything new to the plate. It was pretty mediocre and overdone. It’s not like I haven’t read this kind of book before. I don’t recommend reading unless you really like this kind of book.
Favorite Character: Meghan